Burn Away

In a powerful divination in my Kemetic path, my ancestors came through the divinatory tools and stated, quite plain, that I am like a Phoenix: always changing, always burning away the old, and creating myself anew. It sounded amazing and, to this day, is a powerful experience for me. It's a wonderful and apt description. And yet, some times it can cause a burden.

For almost ten years, I was content with my practice as a Kemetic Recon. My soul felt at home in the worldview and spiritual culture, I recognized the Gods as my own, and I thought I knew my place in the world, forever.

I should've known better than to think anything was forever.

I still feel a great, unshakable, and innate connection to the spirituality of the Land of the Pharaohs. But there is another part of me that yearns and reaches out for something else. Witchcraft.

There is a part of me that is entangled in Witchcraft. It wants to explore and flesh out as much of the practice as it can. It wants to dive deep, head-first. It wants to call out to Gods whose Names I've never spoken before and ask Them to teach me Their mysteries. It wants to engage in practices and methods foreign and strange to the Kemetic part of my soul but it, too, feels like home and it feels now.

I've been putting it off. Not knowing where to start or even how to begin.

Which gods should I approach? I seem to have a bit of curiosity in Dionysus and Hecate but whether this is spiritual or coincidental (due to their obvious associations with Witchcraft), I don't know. There are also things that tug and pull at the periphery of my consciousness, like I've forgotten something extremely important about them: peacocks, peacock feathers, snakes, and... "the wisdom, music and rhythm snakes can teach".... Don't ask me about that last one; it's just there.